I don't really know how to start this. A blog. A confession. Somewhere to put the parts that don't have anywhere else to go
I feel uneasy. Not just today specifically, just in general. Like something is slightly off in a way I have no idea what to do about sometimes, because I can't fully name it. Like I'm living adjacent to my actual life, watching footage of it, almost waiting to find the door in.
The only thing that feels solid to me is GOD. That's not me being performatively religious or telling anyone what to believe. It's just me saying HE is genuinely the ONLY anchor I have.
Part of me thinks if I actually knew myself, maybe things would feel easier. Maybe I'd feel something. Because a lot of the time it feels more like I'm watching my life happen than actually living it.
If you found this and you feel like that too
Hi. Me too.
